The beginning of a new year can bring in many emotions. Excitement, worry, anxiety, hope.
I, for one, am excited for what this year may bring. I have my son who is happy and healthy and I am still alive and kicking. For what its worth, I am so lucky to have the people and things I have. My family has been supportive of me in everything and all the choices I make whether they are right or wrong, they have still seen me through.
My son Khayleb, better known as Hola is in pre school. He will be six this year and still have a hard time coming to terms with it because I know he is no longer a baby and there will come a time sooner than later that I won't be able to carry him. He has gotten so big so fast but he is turning into an amazing person and I can't be mad at that. I have so much fun with him. He makes me laugh and everytime I have a bad day, he cheers me up and make my worries and sorrows disappear. I know every parent can relate to how I feel and believe that children really do make things better. I hope that one day I can have more children. He continues to do well and according to his teacher he is very helpful. When Ben and I went to Hola's parent teacher conference, his teacher Mrs. Berry said he can negotiate really well. It makes me laugh because I don't know very many five year olds who would do that. Ha ha. Kids are so smart and I don't think we give them enough credit for what they are capable of.
Every year I always think that something amazing is going to happen to me but I am always disappointed. Now I am just going to coast because I don't want to get my hopes up. I will let the cards fall as they may but I will say that this year so far has gotten me excited for my future. Has opened my eyes to so many possibilities.