I haven't been in the blogging mood lately as you can tell. I was so excited to blog from California and tell about how awesome our three week vacation back home was but I didn't feel like it, I just wanted to soak up all the help I was getting and enjoy everyone's company. And I still wasn't in the mood to blog about saying good bye to another year and welcoming in a new one. But I know I'll kick myself when this year is over and there aren't very many updates to look back on. So here we go:
California was great! We got to spend time with family and friends, see Isaiah's brother that just returned from his mission, we even made a trip down to Utah to see my Hola Cow. Boy do I miss him! He is getting so tall and it hurts my heart just a little because he's definitely not a baby anymore. It blows my mind to think that this year he will be nine. His dad dropped him off at the airport because we decided it would be a nice surprise for him. He was upset because he couldn't come down for Thanksgiving so I was happy to be able to see him during his Christmas break. I spent five days there and of course it was not enough time to savor and soak up before we had to get back to reality. He is maybe three or four inches shorter than me. I'm 5'5" which isn't tall but for an eight year old to almost be that tall is beyond me. He is half a shoe size away from mine and I just can't take the fact that he is growing at such an extreme rate. I love and miss him so. We had an amazing time and all he wanted to do was play with Zeke and cuddle Kendric. Hola forced himself to stay up late every night, I had to remind him that he wasn't dreaming and that we would be there when he woke up. (my poor baby.) Our Jackie boy stayed in California with Nana and Papa. Of course Jack didn't notice we were gone because he was too busy soaking up his time with Papa, letting Uncle Jordan brush his hair, messing with Great Grandma Va's dog Irie and taking his daily car ride to pick up Nana from work. My family missed him and wished they could have seen him but we'll definitely make our way back to Utah soon enough.
Just like all things, our fun in the sun had to come to an end but to be honest it was nice to get back into our own little space and get situated again in good ol' Cullowhee! This sounds a little selfish but I love the fact that while we're in North Carolina, I get our boys to myself. I DO love seeing the kids and their relationships with their grandparents, their uncles and their aunts but it is nice to enjoy the goofy things they do and have so much time with them. I figure I need to enjoy it here because I really am living the life. Although we are broke college students, I get to stay home with my kids and watch them grow and learn. Not only have we learned to make do with what we have and not live beyond our means but I have the privilege of being able to teach my kids. I know they learn by example so it makes me much more aware of what I do. It is so much fun, they brighten up my days. Don't get me wrong, I do have my moments when I wonder if I'll have any hair left to rip out. But that's when I take a deep breath and know the Lord trusts me with His children and in knowing that, it gives me comfort. I have learned to be patient and not to be such a perfectionist. I could still use a lot of this thing we call patience but it's a work in progress. For now I am slowly learning to acknowledge my imperfections and weaknesses so that they may become strengths. (Book of Mormon; Ether 12:27)
I am learning that my place is in the home. I belong there to teach my children in the ways of the Lord. I am not any less of an individual if I am nothing but a mother and a wife. It is my divine duty and calling to raise my children to become men of God and follow in His ways. I am learning to look with an eye towards Heaven because things of this world are of no use if our lives aren't geared towards Heavenly Father and His great plan. I am slowly but surely learning to nourish my testimony and need to keep remembering that "faith without works is dead." (James 2:20)
I hope that as you strive to become the best that you can possibly be, that you remember "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENETH ME." Philippians 4:13.
Have a great weekend!!