Mar 23, 2012

Decisions

Monday night I was relaxing at home with Kendric. Jack was out and about with Nana and Papa. It was getting late and usually Isaiah comes home at the same time after football practice. At 8:30 pm I knew something was wrong because if he's running late or has to do something after practice he'll call and let me know just so I know he's alright. As soon as I had that feeling, Isaiah's athletic trainer called my phone. He said that Isaiah had suffered a concussion and was a little out of it. Isaiah had taken the car but the trainer told me one of his teammates was going to bring him home. The trainer wanted me to keep a close eye on him to make sure he would be okay and if he started acting weird or continued to vomit to take him to the ER. Ten minutes later his trainer called again and said he was throwing up and was going to take him to the ER. At that moment I was truly grateful that Isaiah's parents were in town. I called Isaiah's dad and let him know. I patiently waited for his parents to come pick me up but then Isaiah called and told me his teammate, Brian was going to bring the car to me. I called my in-laws and they told me they would just meet me at the hospital. Isaiah's teammates Brian and Bevans along with Bevans' girlfriend Krissy came and picked Kendric and me up to take us to the hospital. I wasn't nervous or scared and knew that everything was going to be okay. Sometimes when situations like these arise I tend to go into auto pilot and don't really think, I just do what I need to and act without emotion. It may or may not be a good thing but it works for me. When we got to the ER the receptionist told me to sit in the waiting room until Isaiah got back from getting some x-rays done. This was all too familiar. My poor husband has had five concussions in the last four years. This was his second one within a year. After sitting in the ER for a while we were able to go home. The next day Isaiah was required to go to the school doctor to have him check Isaiah out. The doctor said something that we both weren't expecting at all. He told Isaiah that he needs to really think about whether he wants to continue to play football because if he had another concussion he could suffer brain damage or Parkinson's Disease and if he hit his head again in just the right spot it could even mean death. He told Isaiah to research the effects of excessive concussions, to think it over and to talk to me about it since wives are usually the voice of reason! On the way home, the words wouldn't sink in. To any one this decision would seem like a no brainer. As an athlete my heart hurt for him. It hurt just to hold back the tears because this has always been his passion but as his wife there was no question of what I felt he should do. Ultimately it was his decision and I would support him no matter what.
Yes, football is what he has come to love and wanted to continue to pursue but the love for his family is even greater than football. Your perspective changes once you have a wife and children and sometimes things don't go as planned. I know if he was single he would have dismissed the information and advice the doctor gave him. But he's not and we're just grateful that he has had the opportunity to further his education and get his degree. We want him around for a LONG time and with that said, my husband's football career has come to an end. I know this isn't how he wanted to end his football career but there are definitely more important things than sports. This is only a small chapter in his our book of life. He will continue to go to the practices and will be on the sideline in support of his team. We're so blessed to be where we're at and we have no complaints. God has watched over us and has showered us with tender mercies. I'm grateful he has an amazing coach who is willing to take the time to listen to Isaiah and get to know him. I know once the season starts it will be bittersweet for my Lovey but I can't risk his health and I would never be able to forgive myself if he were to continue playing and something were to happen. I just hope he knows how proud I am of him and am thankful that he works so hard for our family and always has our best interests at heart.
I love you babe and am so blessed to have you as my husband!!

Hope you all enjoy the things you have and never take for granted the ones you hold dear!

6 comments:

  1. I am so sorry to hear this!  I am so glad you have such an amazing perspective...it helps :) It will all work out, you guys always come out on top :)

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  2. Thanks Kristy, that truly means a lot! Thank you for all of your kind words, you are amazing!

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  3. jessica.jorgensen07March 26, 2012 at 1:33 PM

    Wow, that is so tough! It is always interesting how you think your life is going one way, but really it was just a stepping stone for the bigger picture. Thanks for sharing and I hope your husband is doing okay. Stop throwing him around so much so he stops getting concussions! :-)

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  4. haha too funny Jess! I can't help it!! haha just kidding. It is tough but you're right, it is just another stepping stone. All that matters is the bigger picture and I want to keep my husband, broken head and all. :)

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  5. What a hard decision to make! You're right though, family definitely comes first. I know Heavenly Father will bless you guys for Isaiah's sacrifice. Love you, Talisha!

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  6. Thanks Holli! Love you too. You are awesome!!

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