As I was looking at the photos and reading all of the great tributes to him, I found myself trying to hold back tears.
I was never able to meet him but I remember when Isaiah and I started dating, he told me about his cousin being sick and was in the hospital.
It seems like so long ago, yet it was only three years ago.
Three years that hold so much pain, anguish, sweet sweet joy, tender mercies and lots of hope and faith.
Three years of growth, of a void that can never be filled, of memories to ponder and to continue to hold dear to your heart.
Three years of knowing strength you never knew you had.
Three years of tested faith and patience. Of full trust and reliance on the Lord for comfort that only He can render.
Waiting patiently yet so anxiously for that lovely reunion of someone you've lost yet knowing that he was needed for a greater purpose.
This wonderful young man, Bingham Star Kaleopa returned to our Heavenly Father December 11, 2009.
Although I was never able to meet him, he still holds a special place in my heart and impacted the lives of those whom I love and cherish.
Being able to get to know his parents and siblings has been a great honor for me. They are such loving and wonderful people. Although I didn't know him in his physical presence, his spiritual presence is strong and feel him all around me especially because he was so close to my brothers-in-law. They carry him in everything they do. Through stories and memories, I feel like I have come to know him. I know if he was still here he would be an amazing uncle to my boys' just like the rest of their uncles. I know his laugh would ring through the house as Lewis' does. I know he's all around us and watches over us. I know that with him entering this world as well as his departure from this world, we are all better people because of him. He touched the lives of many in such a short period of time. I am eternally grateful to know that there is a plan. That we have a loving Father in Heaven and that we will be able to see our loved ones again.
Yesterday also would have been my dear friend Nelson's 27th birthday.
He passed away almost two years ago.
His first cousin Jenn is my best friend and we definitely were a trio growing up. He always wanted to hang out with us hoping we'd introduce him to some hot girl!! haha the joke was on him because we never did! In the end he married the love of his life so that didn't matter but we definitely had some amazing times laughing, joking and then in turn getting mad at each other. We were all so close that it was easy to tell each other how annoying one was and in that same breath make a joke about it!! It makes me smile whenever I think of the crazy things we used to do, of all the inside jokes we used to have. He was always there to listen to our problems and to always lighten the mood. He was there for our heartbreaks and in turn we were there to laugh at him when he didn't have the guts to talk to a pretty girl!
Sometimes I still can't believe he's gone. I often think it's because I wasn't able to attend his funeral. Sometimes I think you need that type of closure. To pay your last respects to someone you hold dear to your heart.
He was such a goofy person and I will always treasure the memories I have of him.
Heaven definitely gained some amazing men when they left this life and I can't help but be overwhelmed with joy knowing that they are still watching over us and that their spirits still live on, that their names will never leave our minds and for that I am eternally grateful!!